Another Christmas Party

It's party number two tonight and I'm feeling stronger, staying on the wagon for the last one has given me hope.  I need to make sure it's not false hope.  I love the holiday season, it's my favorite time of the year.  It is so much fun to dress up.  I got the cut and color yesterday and the facial, life is good. 

I have a beautiful little boy making cute little stirring noises beside my bed.  Zayin spent the night as his mommy has an early morning class.  It's so fun to make him a special bed beside us, the other cute man in my life is gone to work already.  I love the quietness of morning and those little whimpers, that only sound nice coming from a baby, are so peaceful.  I love the hope a new day brings, I love wondering what will happen and I'm especially fond of the fact that God has this day planned out already. 

I think I like the morning so much because it's like hitting the restart button, whatever I messed up yesterday I can fix today.  Whatever I did wrong yesterday can inspire me to do it right today.  No point in agonizing over yesterdays woes, restart and make today better. 

I'm so happy to report that I'm no longer pushing eleven pounds I'm closing in on twelve, not quite there yet but it still feels good.  I have to admit I'm a little happy that I'm not at twelve, remember the Christmas party I have tonight.  I plan to eat, enjoy myself and practice moderation and self control.  Prayer would be appreciated and I will be on the team.

I pray this day brings you the desires of your heart and I also pray that you would be surprised by those desires.

Be blessed with a wonderful day.

The Application

Yesterday I wrote about slapping my own hand when I reached for those free goodies.  I was instantly convicted as I re-read what I wrote that I  need to follow through with the application of what I put in my blog.  I failed horribly last night at following my own advice.  Chantel my beautiful pregnant daughter-in-law had a jewelry party with her sister Cassie and they filled a snack table with so many yummy treats.  I forgot to repeat my new prayer mantra, you know the "it's not free food" one.  Oh there were healthy snacks and I had few morsels, but the sour candies and the bread with spinach dip, well, that's all I have...well.

Todays Question:  "Do you think I gained weight?"

I sure did, I was not looking forward to the morning.  I"m very happy to report that I did not gain any weight.  I'm sure it is because I resisted the cookies I bought for the people at Gord's office.  Maybe it's because I did not eat the brownies Chantel's mom makes that are so amazing.  I was going to bring some home for Gord but I knew it was a trick, once those brownies were sitting beside me on the drive home, well lets just say,  "What brownies honey, there were no brownies." 

I was very surprised at how quickly I forgot what I wrote yesterday morning.  I usually re-read what I write to help prepare my mind for the next blog, I had honestly forgotten what I wrote.  It hit me smack dab in the middle of that very uncomfortable place.  You know the one, when someone tells you what you said and you deny it, then they give you a you a word for word account and your brain snaps on.  I'm not a fan of that let me tell you.  Don't like it at all actually. 

So, todays lesson for me?  Application!  It's a powerful action word, one I normally embrace with both arms, unless food is involved and then I seem to move both hands to mouth.  I'm going to rejoice in the things I didn't do wrong yesterday and focus on them.  I'll remember I said no to some very delightful things and applied what I knew.  What's done is done and I can't change it...I can learn from it.

Be blessed with a wonderful day.

The Sneaky Snacks

I have noticed that those sneaky little Christmas snacks are finding their way into my hand or onto my plate...as of late.  Oh dear, I don't like those sneaky snacks, well I do but I'm concerned about how much difference they'll make when I step on that other thing I don't like, that would be the scale. 

Todays Question:  "Can you tell I haven't weighed in yet?"

Maybe today I'll just "weigh in" with my opinion to change it up a bit.  I'm doing it for you, I certainly don't mind weighing in.  Ha!  Okay fine, I'll be right back.  (She said as she sat her computer on her pillow beside her massage chair, she was hoping the pounds would be massaged off. Good luck with that!)

So the full moon out my bedroom window this morning is amazing, that's  not something I've ever seen before and I've lived here for over 14 years now.  Now where were we...the scale yes that's right, I am pushing it but I remain at 11 pounds down.  Praise the Lord.  This is why I weigh everyday and not once a week, can't imagine how I would lie to myself if I had a week to accountability.  Oh wait a minute did I say I couldn't imagine, let me change that, 30 plus years of diets have shown me clearly that once a week weigh ins don't work at all for my delusional mind. 

I will be slapping my own hand for the rest of the week if I reach for those free chocolates or goodies that seem to be everywhere.  I have yet another Christmas party this weekend and that means more yummy free food.  I have got to get that "f" word, as in free, out of my head.  It's not free, it's not free, it's not free, that's going to have to be my meditation mantra.  We all know I'll pay in the "end" if I don't.

Be blessed with a wonderful day.  Jesus loves you.

P.S  Thanks to my beautiful daughter Tessa who made my blog so pretty and ready for Christmas.  She is one of the best gifts I ever got.

God is Greater

I had a horrible dream last night, woke myself up to end it.  Found myself realizing how very strong the enemy is, instantly remembered that God is greater.  No matter what battle you face, be it personal, physical as in eating right, or spiritual...GOD IS GREATER!!!

I was happy Gord was beside me this morning and hadn't left for work yet.  It was good to know he was there but as I pondered how strong this man in my dream was, abusing his wife, his children and pretty much anyone who stood in his way, I realized that Gord couldn't protect me and I certaintly couldn't protect myself.  As my mind pondered how very great God is I remembered King David, how he killed a lion and a bear as he watched over the sheep under his care.  I also remembered how he went to battle Goliath with his sling shot.  I realized that it was not David who killed any of those powerful enemies, it was God.  David knew that no enemy, animal or human was greater than his God.  "You come against me with a sword, a spear and a javelin, I come against you in the name of the living God, the God of the armies of Israel."  He does not even mention his slingshot, he knew it was only the tool God used to deliver him from his enemies and tools are good.

Todays Question:  "How often do you think your husband, your dead bolts, the police or your alarm system will protect you?"

It's just a question from a lady who had a horrible dream about an enemy so strong that guns, multiple officers, and me bending fingers to break them only to discover he didn't care, couldn't stop him from abusing his family.  Nothing helped and no one seemed able to defeat this enemy, this horrid person, who by the way looked just like Gord's favorite home repair man, yep sorry honey it was Holmes on Homes.  It's okay because I know he's a nice man in real life so don't worry.  

My point?  We will all face many enemies and they will all be different.  If it's not lions, bears or Goliaths it will be sickness, depression, anxiety, self-condemnation or any number of other problems or disorders a day can bring forth.  I struggle in so many areas, I'm up and happy one moment, battling to control my emotions the next, blasted life changes, I do know that this too shall pass.  I will get to my destination safe and sound in spite of what happens along the way.

I am a child of the Most High God and I will overcome not by my own strength but by His because God is Greater and I will look to Him.  "No weapon formed against me shall prosper."  "Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world."

I press on knowing He has gone ahead of me.  I'll bet when God looks at me he already sees me fifty one pounds lighter.  I love knowing that God has a plan and He will bring it to fruition.

Be blessed with a wonderful day.